|How I Became Sure That My Sins Are Forgiven|
I was born and brought up in a Christian family in Jabalpur, Madhya Pradesh, in Central India. At the tender age of four and a half, my father died leaving behind a twenty one year old widow and three little sons. The culture in which we were born, made my father's mother think that her daughter-in-law was the cause of her brilliant son’s death at the age of twenty-seven. The result was my mother and we were considered 'untouchables.' My mother's mother took up the challenge of looking after her widowed daughter and the three fatherless children. Poverty was the way of life I grew up to.
Along with poverty came a loneliness leading me to seek shelter in God. When I was nine years of age, I began to attend some Christian meetings in Kymore near Katni in Jabalpur district. Due to the faithful teachings of a man of God, I became convicted that I was a sinner and needed to be saved from the punishment of my sins. When I was fourteen years of age, I developed double pneumonia and became critically ill. It almost seemed I would die. One day while I was critically sick, I cried and asked the Lord Jesus to forgive my sins. Though no apparent change came in my life the fear of God and His presence became very real. After finishing my Eleventh Grade from Christian High School, Jabalpur, I joined Government College, Kota, Rajasthan from 1956 to 1961. I joined a college as a lecturer in Muzaffarnagar. Later I took up research under the Indian Council of Medical Research (ICMR) in Lady Harding Medical College, New Delhi. In 1962, I joined the Allahabad Agricultural Institute as Research Assistant and became an Associate Professor after one year. In April, 1964, I joined the Indian Air Force as an officer in the Education Branch. The Lord kept me in His fear during all my years in the Air Force and enabled me to live a strict disciplined Christian life. However, I still did not have the joy of my sins being forgiven.
In April, 1976, while I was still in the Indian Air Force, I found myself alone in a room musing about my life that after all I was a good man. I had vowed to give two and a half hours of my life to Him daily since I was a poor boy ad did not have money to give. I kept my promise of spending two and a half hours every day reading the Bible from the age of nine. Also the fear of God kept me from straying away from the straight and narrow path. While in the Air Force, I never touched a drop of liquor nor went to the ball room floor nor indulged in any of the so called 'major sins.' On the other hand, I was very punctual in going to church every Sunday, in holding meetings in my own house and giving a substantial part of my salary to the church.
While reflecting on my goodness, I heard a voice ask me: 'Which is my greatest commandment?'
I replied, 'Lord your greatest commandment is to love your God with all your heart, with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second question followed: 'Have you broken my greatest commandment?'
I replied, 'Yes Lord.'
The third question came, 'He that breaks my greatest commandment, what kind of a sinner is he?'
In the fraction of a second I was convicted that I was indeed the greatest sinner, since I had broken the greatest commandment. I, therefore, knelt down with tears flowing down my cheeks and cried and prayed, 'Oh Lord please accept me and have mercy upon me and forgive my sins.' I heard a voice saying, 'Read Isaiah 44:22.' I went to my cupboard and took the Bible and read Isaiah 44:22. 'I have blotted out, as a thick cloud, thy sins: return unto Me; for I have redeemed thee.' The moment I read this verse, my physical feeling was as if a great burden rolled away and a great joy filled my heart. Great peace came into my soul. For four days I felt as if I was walking on air.
But a question still lingered in my mind, 'What kind of a God is He who so easily forgave my sins?' After all justice demands that I should be punished for my sins. I was reading the Bible and came across I Peter 2:24 which says: ‘Who his own self bare our sins in His own body on the tree (cross) that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.’ I heard the Lord speak to me, 'I did not forgive your sins just like that. I was born in human history 2000 years ago through a virgin and lived a sinless life. My hands touched the blind and gave them eyesight. My Hands fed the hungry, they touched and healed the sick, they touched and raised the dead and many more. It is your hands which committed sins. But I gave my hands to be nailed on the cross for you. My feet went to alleviate human sufferings. It is your feet which went to fulfill your lusts but I gave my feet to be nailed on the cross for you. My mouth said, If someone smites you on the right cheek turn to him the other also; blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God. Even on the cross my mouth said, 'Father forgive them for they do not know what they do. It is your mouth which spoke evil thoughts but I gave my head to be crowned with a crown of thorns and beaten. Your heart had evil desires but I gave my heart to be pierced through by a Roman spear. Thus for every sin of yours I paid through my body. So I did not forgive your sins just like that but have paid for every sin of yours through my life when, I, the God who cannot die, died.'
From that day my life changed completely and a great joy filled my heart and great peace and assurance of sins forgiven came into my soul. From that day I know that if I were to die any time I would go to heaven not because of my goodness, but because of the fact that the Lord Jesus Christ paid the full penalty of my sins on the cross and when I humbled myself and turned away from my sins and asked His pardon, He forgave me freely and completely.
My dear reader, you could also have this forgiveness. The Bible makes the following five important absolute true statements:
In Titus 3:5 the Bible says, 'Not by works of righteousness which we have done but according to His mercy He saved us, by the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Ghost.'
I therefore request you my friend to consider the Lord Jesus Christ who by virtue of being your Creator loves you, and wants you to be saved from sin and live with Him forever. He gave His own life for you. If you will say the following prayer by simple faith, God will forgive you.
'Lord, I acknowledge that I am a sinner. I request you to come into my heart. I request you to kindly forgive all my sins and to wash me with your sinless blood. I believe that your blood can wash away all my sins. I believe that you died on the cross in my place, for my sins. I believe that you were buried. I believe that you rose again the third day, from the dead. I believe that you are coming again to receive me to be with You in heaven. Lord change me and make me a new person. Teach me to read the Bible and teach me to pray. I ask this prayer in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.'
(Dr. V K Williams is the Principal of Mount Carmel School, Anand Niketan, New Delhi. He is married to Dr Mrs N M Williams who is the Principal , Mount Carmel School, Dwarka. Together both of them serve the Lord Jesus and desire to bring their students in to a vital relationship with the living God. they have contributed greatly the t field of Education since 1972 and have impacted thousands of students with the Gospel of the Lord Jesus.)